I want to be sedated. Even just being able to fall asleep, to reboot, would be a comfort, but it always seems like when I really want to, I just can't.
I've been entertaining the idea of trying Seroquel. Some of the side effects, though, like brain damage and death were kind of a deterrent. Then again, maybe it would be great. Maybe I could walk around in a bathrobe like a zombie all day.
I don't want to feel anything.