Still haven't figured out the daycare situation yet. I wonder if I should quit the new job. Today was my second day at work. I like that I can hide in the corner of the hospital and not have to interact with very many people. On the other hand, I've been doing mostly data entry that is tedious and boring and generally reinforces my feelings of inadequacy.
I am really starting to hate work.
I can't even imagine wanting to have any kind of job. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't want anything.
I haven't wanted to write about it, but I don't even want to take classes or go to medical school. I can't think of a single thing that I'd ever want to do. I just keep sort of tentatively planning to take a class in the fall hoping that eventually I'll feel more like myself. Right now, all I really want out of life is to sleep.
I don't know why I even have this blog anymore. Sometimes I think I should delete it. I don't really blog about the healthcare profession very much, anymore, instead just how much I've screwed up my life.